Tales of a Thankful Mom

​ “Tonight I’m going to fix my eyes on the only hope that satisfies. You are, You are the one I’m running to. Everything that’s good and right true. Jesus I’m coming back to who you are. You are the one I’m running to.”                                           I am not much of a runner. In fact all three of my children can outrun me. This recent Lent season taught me how much I tend to run from my problems. I don’t do this by physically running, but by running to my phone to distract myself, or turning on the tv, or telling myself that I have too much housework or other chores to do than to deal with whatever unpleasant thing that is bugging me right now. When I feel this way I need to stop looking for the world’s comfort and run to my Savior. He is the One that I need to be running to. He binds up my broken heart. He will never leave me or forsake me. When I feel the need to run, may I run to Him. The One I’m Running to

           There is a '90's era country song entitled "Queen of Denial." I sometimes feel like I am the queen of denial. Instead of dealing with hard situations or emotions, I want to be like Scarlett O'Hara, and think about them tomorrow. I am learning that issues do not get resolved that way. Also in all my denying, the emotions will just start coming out sideways. Have you ever had bizarre dreams that were caused by unresolved emotions? I know I have. Or I will have a large reaction to a small problem because I am feeling triggered. Instead of living in denial, I need to bring all of myself to Jesus, especially the broken messy parts. Only He can make beautiful things out of the dust. I need to run to the Prince of Peace and find hope, healing and strength in Him.